Anyway, thinking positive is really tiring, both mentally
and physically. It’s not easy to keep reaching for the stars when the actual
day to day is full of craps i.e. bills and debts to pay, family to feed, jobs
to do… well, what’s new and reality does bite… ouch! I can only try my level
best to get by each day, hoping and praying that the monthly dues are covered
and we have enough to last for the month. I know that partly it’s my fault,
poor at managing the financials even though I’ve studied Accounts for crying
out loud! Ya ya, I know we women are supposed to be the Financial Controller
but I’ve failed miserably! A total shame to women kind! To counter and save my
sorry behind, I’ve read more, Google more to understand and manage my
financials better. So it’s safe to say that one day I’ll be able to achieve my many
dreams *fingers crossed*
Just hoped that it is not too late… I know I know… must
think positive! It is never too late for anything! If there is a will, there is
a way! Yes, have to be positive-minded and pray that more $$$ will come my way
be it from work or business. Also, I hope to be able to help others in similar
predicament in the near future be it via Angel Investment or charitable donation.
I know how it is like being in these shoes and hating it. I guess these shoes
also help to mould me to be a better and stronger person eventually.
Sorry for the long rants here but I needed to get it off my
chest. It’s somehow easier for me to voice out my thoughts in writing as opposed
to talking with someone. Honestly, I can only achieve perhaps 50% by talking as
the conversation will either be left hanging/ unresolved or changed of topic.
In the end, I’ll still feel bottled up and stressed *sweat* At times, I do wish
my Dad will come into my dreams and guide me, telling me what I should do and
where I should go to. He was educated, an Engineer by profession, would have
understood my situation and guide me accordingly. Instead, now I have to grasp
and learn on my own, reading more books for dummies and asking my close friends
for advice. Mind you, my friend’s experience and skills are limited thus not an
easy feat grasping more knowledge here *sigh*
Thank you to whoever is reading this, understanding my
predicament and hopefully you can advice me too. I gladly accept your advice as
I greedily absorb more knowledge and understanding. I do not want to be the
majority who lives their life monotonously as life should be. I want to be the
minority who achieve and living their dreams. I want to be rich! Erm… ain’t we
all… o.O
Anyhow, I’ve decided to create a board in Pinterest called ‘Dreams’
where I’ll pin stuffs which I hope to achieve in my lifetime. It’ll be like a
motivational board/ goal for me and I can update it from time to time once I’ve
achieved it *fingers crossed* *pray hard*
Anyways, to end this ranting, a collage of Instagrams of my
January below:
From top left:
My new lavendar for my toe nails, my current liquor storage, a cute fridge magnet from Taiwan, my Fifty Shades trilogy, my favourite caffeine, my face on day 3 after facial, another favourite caffeine, my face on day 0 after facial, my favourite Pokka coffee's, my new shoes which was biting my heel, my Angels, my favourite Magnum ice-cream and yummy ice-cream fondue.
Thanks S.Soh for this nice black sesame rolls from Hong Kong! Below are some CNY decors I come across:
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| Summit USJ |
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| KL Sentral |
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